One of the things that I committed to when I started this blog was that I would attempt to be vulnerable, to not only share my dreams and exciting things, but also share my challenges and when things aren't going how I want them to go.
AN AMAZING TEAM
This week was incredible! I spent last weekend holed up in a hotel with part of my team, for almost 15 hours over 1.5 days, going over the plan and future of my music. It included an 85 page document that details my business and marketing plan, of which I can't reveal the details because of their proprietary nature (how's that for a hook?), as well as hours of explanation and expansion on where we're headed. So now we begin the first round of fundraising with investors that will support the first music project, as well as my label, publishing, and the other multiple aspects of the business! I'm amazed at the team that is assembling around me that will help me to get where I want to go, and allow me to focus on the things that I need to do: writing, singing, recording, performing, repeat.
The past weekend was filled with appointments, and I wrote with some great writers. I had a meeting with a guy on Music Row, who is in "the know" in the industry. As time goes along, there will be some relationships that I will tell you the names, and other times, I'll keep those names private out of respect of their position, or because of the level of relationship I have with them at the time. Anyway, I meet with this guy, a great guy! We have an engaging conversation that sparks what I think will be a strong partnership in the future. He asks for me to play some of my music for him. Of course, I have a bunch of songs on my iPhone, so I plug it in to his speakers and push play. As I sit there, on Music Row, in his office, with my music thumping through his high quality speakers, I feel...exposed. I can feel myself churning on the inside, my heart racing, and I can feel my body and disposition tensing. It's a surreal moment to say the least. I speak to myself a saying that I made up that helps ground me and slow me down when I'm mentally overexerting; "Sit in the middle of the universe", and immediately my emotional engagement to the situation calms. It even relaxes me physically. It isn't that I want him to like it, or that I am scared that he won't like it. Honestly, whether he likes it or not is irrelevant, I'm not looking for his approval in that way. Don't get me wrong, I want him to like it, but if he doesn't, that doesn't change my commitment. This situation is a moment for me to recognize my "offering", for today at least. It is me, putting myself out there, sharing my gifts, my heart, and my talents with someone who doesn't even know me. I'm expecting nothing in return, yet I know that this is one of the ways that I show up in the world, and when you show up in such a way, you never know what can happen.
I AM ALIVE
There's something that's exhilarating and yet terrifying in the process of sharing yourself with others. It makes me feel alive. It's like that anticipation that stirs on Christmas morning as a kid, when you're so excited to wake up in the morning to find out what you're getting. It makes me realize how much time I've spent over the last many years living safe and sheltered, instead of being willing to offer myself in a way that would help me grow, and contribute my gifts to the world around me. Well, those days of playing safe are over. I am committed to making that offering every day, showing up as an artist in the world, and taking the consistent action that moves me toward my dreams, even when they make me feel exposed and vulnerable. At the end of the day, I will have made a contribution, and it doesn't matter what's waiting on the other side of that moment. What matters is that I make the effort, that I dare to put myself out there, knowing that no matter what...I will do it again tomorrow.
MUSIC VIDEOS COMING!
The offerings of putting myself out there will continue...SO... I will be releasing some music to the public this coming week! In fact, I just released my first video last night! I'm going to be doing some covers (no originals just yet), with just me and a guitar. There's no better season than to begin that, than with Christmas music. I've already post on my FB page, and I've had several people comment on what songs they would love for me to sing, so I'm working on several of those. If there's something you would like to hear, please drop me a message or comment below. I'll be posting videos to my social media, and I'm beginning to build my YouTube channel. These are going to be raw, organic videos of me singing. I'm really excited to make these videos, especially for the many people who have never heard me sing and keep asking, "when am I going to hear you sing?" Well, here's your chance! Who knows, maybe I'll hop on Periscope in a couple of weeks and perform some Christmas music, LIVE! And speaking of live music, I'm lining up some dates to play at writer's nights here in the Nashville area. As I start doing those, I'll post them on my website.
Thanks for joining me on this journey, and I hope you can make a contribution, an "offering" to the world today, that makes you feel alive!
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